Over the past few months I have been going back and forth on why I don't paint my toe nails. No, for real! It's not that I never paint them (probably 2 or 3 times a year) and it's not that I have some type of profound reason for not doing so, I just don't. I remember a conversation I had the day of my high school graduation with a friend of mine. There were tons of friends and family at my house getting ready to head to my graduation and I was getting ready. I wanted to look great! As I was almost ready, I made a casual comment, in the room where all of my friends and family were sitting, about maybe I should paint my toenails for the occasion. My friend looked down at my bare toenails and after looking back up at me he said, "Uhhhh. Yeah, you should." Ha!
It sounds so crazy, but in the past few months I have really been thinking about why I don't paint my toe nails... why I don't put on much makeup, if any anymore... why I want everything I own to be the color white. Doesn't that make me what people refer to as a "plain Jane?" Or boring? Or worse... am I just lazy?
Laziness is what really got me. Am I lazy?! As I really took a step back and began thinking (I know, I know. When do I stop?) about it... it isn't laziness.. it's style. It's my style.
I am the girl who doesn't clip her toenails. I file every. single. one. to have the perfect edge. I soften, buff and shine my toenails. I do a cuticle treatment on them often! A cuticle treatment!! (Judging here is completely acceptable.) I am not lazy. I am picky. I like things to be clean, fresh and true to their most natural form. The same applies to my makeup routine. I am not lazy. I just don't like the bright colors, or looking drastically different with it on or off. I like the real thing.
Style is something that I have really been growing in lately. It's not a matter of editing my wardrobe or even buying more clothes. I am growing in the sense of learning and embracing who I am and what I consider my style in life, in my business and even in my makeup regimen.
"What is really hard, and really amazing, is giving up on being perfect
and beginning the work of becoming yourself."